suami idaman hati.

i just listened to Halaqah at TV3 a moment ago..a very informative programme..the title of the talk is suami idaman hati. a gud topic to be listened and pay attention by a single lady who is looking for a partner for their life. sum of the characteristics of 'a dream hubby' are:

** beragama dan bermoral

** memiliki ciri2 kepimpinan

** ada sense of humor

** ada motivasi hidup

** setia

** gud looking

** terima seadanya

the most important is:

** can be more than a gud friend or to be exact not just a lover

wut else?huhh there's a lot of ciri2 suami idaman..but i just can list a few of them..enough lar ye..a few is better than null rite??i do really hope he is fit enough to meet the requirement.

*wink*

;)

gangguan ditempat kerja.

saya tgh tekun bekerja..

tiba2 fikiran saya terganggu..

sebab:

DIA!

haishhh nak kena awak ni..

sape suh kaco fikiran saya???

hehe ;)

mode:windu-winduan~ *wink*

E.N.D

the end has come.

it is the time for me to say gudbye and thanks to all.

last time, i cant wait for this time.

but when it has turn up.

feel like ........................

i just dunnoe how to describe.

i'll keep it myself lar.

gudbye everybody.

u r going to be part of my sweetest memory.

(\*v*/)

wed~

i got sooo many wedding invitation since last month.

but too bad..i cant make myself available 4 their big day.

selamat pengantin baru to whom is getting married this month or last month.

u'r such a very lucky person lar..

talking bout marriage ni..

tibe2 aku rs mcm too old plak.

almost 25yrs (next yr yep!), but still hold 'bachelorette' status.

xpe lar..

lets the time decides what is the best 4 us.

tapi..

nak kawen jgk!!

hehe~

moral of the story:

kita manusia hanya mampu merancang..tiada kuasa untuk menentukan apa yang berlaku itu seperti yang kita inginkan..

biarlah masa yg menentukan~

gumbiranya.

im so happy today.

my unpaid leave have been approved by HR!

yeay~

and i got 1 day leave next week..

so that i can go back 1 day earlier than wut im planning lar..

hehe best!

happy~

2 minggu lagi.

i have 2 weeks more to survive.

if can,i want to go back as soon as possible.

dun want to be here anymore.

tersiksa jiwa raga berulang alik everyday.

leave house at 7am,

reached home at 6pm.

gile penat!

seriyes!

i nak resign cepat2!

buhsan sudah..

hopefully my unpaid leave will be approve by HR..

1 week more.

today is wed okeh.

what's so important bout wed???

juz want to tell the world..

next wed im going home again!

yeay!

this is the time im waiting for since i hv been apart from my home sweet home..

cant wait any longer.

x sabaq nk balik!

Muslims are going to celebrate HAri RAyA HAji next friday..

and im thinking bout how im going to celebrate this raya..

i hv no baju raya lar..

should i hunt for a new one??

yeah!i should!

stat hunting from now!

less time left!

;)

nervous.

current mood:

'im so0000 damn nervous okeh!'

:(

footnote:dub dab dub dab...

morning post.

i juz ate nasik lemak for my breakfast this morning.

d nasik lemak was so sedap.

originally homemade.

sambal was prepared by kak amy.

cucumber and papadom were brought by shiela.

eggs by linda.

n i brought d kacang grg.

hehe.

then they all cooked d nasik at the office.

their aroma..perghh!menyengat!

i was so kenyang!overload as i ate twice!

u noe wut?

this things make me soo berat hati to leave this memorable place.

i hv been here for almost 3 months.

i luv this place.

but wut else can i do?

sorry guys..

sorry linda..didnt mean to leave u..

i noe u r so sad n patah hati...

but im sure 1 day u'll also find a better one lar..

juz like me..

dun worry..

we tetap kawan okeh!

;)

grateful.

kalau lah ia benar..

alhamdulillah sgt..

syukur ke hadrat Ilahi..;)

unstable.

i dun feel gud today.

not in term of health, but in term of how do i feel today.

or to be exact..how my mood is.

dunnoe why.

i feel like sumthing is wrong everywhere.

every inch of my life.

why hah??

do i think too much?

or mybe bcoz i just stay at home make me feel uncomfortable?

and make me think rubbish and nonsense thing?

owh im getting crazy if i keep myself this way.

come on hamizah!

think positively okeh??

my mood is so bad!

urghhhhhh~

footnote:my emotion is not stable okeh.sy tgh pms!urghhhh geram!;p

owh hujan.

its a heavy rain outside there.

make my eye so sleepy.

moreover my tummy is full n overload.

im planning to go out this afternoon.

but look like the weather is not alowing me to go for jalan2...

maybe they noe if im out to sumwhere,

then my money is going to running like waterfall tu kan..haha!

so better stay at home je lar.

furthermore hujung2 bulan ni kan..

gaji xmasuk lg..

owh hujan!

urghhh sy sgt mengantuk!

current life.

hi olz.

this week turn to be my 2nd week of staying at home without doing anything...

tido makan maen game tido lagi makan lagi maen game lagi dan seterusnya.

presently, my life is soooo damn bored!

cant go anywhere...cant eat a lot of fav foods..

have to restraint myself from many2 interesting 'things to do'..

haiyaaa...

i was thinking to go back home...

buttTtttttTT....

mcm malas plak...

i feel like wanna go sumwhere for sightseeing and makan angin...

but dunnoe where..

plus nobody is free like me...

they all are busy with their own commitment kan...

urghhh so bowink.

i start to miss my workplace..

my head is burdened with a lot of uncomplete work..

i will recover asap..insyaAllah

so that im able to start my daily working life again..

i miss it sooo muchhh!

aduhai demam.

i caught a fever since last nite.

i had taken 2 pills last nite and 1 more during sahur this morning.

but seem nothing change.

my body temp is still high.

i was thinking about to take a leave or mc this morning.

but, since i thought i'll recover after took a medicine.

then i tetap gagahkn diri ke opis..

how could the panadols didnt work at all??

dah lar my ofis is damn cold.

i cant stand this anymore.

i hv to step out!

uwaaaa.

sy nk blk tido...;(

annoying.

i got an annoying back pain at my upper thoracic these several days.

i feel like wanna lie down on the bed all the time je.

cant they provide me a comfortable chair??

so that i wont suffer this kind of pain.

they keep interrupting my mood+my work.

ouchh so sakit

urghhh.

emosi.

i hate u.

when u ignored me.

u noe its hard for me to make a call, isn't it?

then?

im so frustrated.

footnote:emotional post.;p

tensen.

sakit kepala yg amat.

satu keje pon tak buleh nk buat.

adeihhh lar.

tensen sungguh lar.

;(

240am.

its 240am in the early morning.

im still awake.

my eye still open.

i cant even close them for a second.

dunnoe why.

even my eye is shut up,

my head keep working.

so,

how can i sleep well?

urghh.

sgt geram.

msg 4 all.

kenapa kesempurnaan yang dicari?

bukankah keserasian itu yang lebih penting?

jika kesempurnaan yang dicari,

maka,

tidak akan pernah bahagialah kita.

kerana kesempurnaan itu bukan hak milik kita.

bukankah kita hidup untuk saling melengkapi antara satu sama lain?

kerana tidak ada manusia yang mampu berdiri tegak dan gagah tanpa sokongan manusia lain.

itulah hakikatnya.

kesempurnaan bukan bermaksud kebahagian.

footnote:post umum.tiada kaitan antara hidup atau yg telah meninggal dunia. ;)

mari membebel.

hari ini sy dah mula bekerja semula.

sungguh tak seronok.

tak ade mood langsung nak bekerja.

datang ofis main game je hari ni.

haha.

tu la padan muka.

sapa suruh tak amik cuti panjang2.

tp macam mane nak amik cuti panjang2.

sebab cuti tahunan sy memang dah tinggal ciput saja.

haishhh.

bosan sungguh hari ini.

lagi satu.
kereta sy buat hal.
tak dapat nak start enjin.
entah ape lar masalahnya.
mungkin dia merajuk sebab sy tinggal dia sorang2 dekat bangi idaman.
tak ajak pon dia balik raya same2.
dah lar tahun ini 1st time dia berpuasa dan beraya jauh dari keluarga dan sanak saudaranya dikampung.
sungguh kesian dekat DAF ku itu.
maaf ye tak bawa awak balik beraya sekali.
tak muat nak bawa masuk kapal terbang.
hehe.
jangan merajuk2 lagi ye.
cepat2 lar baek.
sy nak pergi kerja pon susah ni kalau awak buat hal.
petang kang sy bawa awak g clinic nak?
bagi doc cucuk sikit.
hehe.
;)

@#$%&!*&%$@#!

hari ini raya ke-5 kan?

tak terlewat lagi.

sy nak wish semua

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

selamat beraya pada yg masih bercuti.

sy tak jealous pon.

dengki sikit saja.

haha.

;p

lets listen.

salam aidilfitri ayahanda dan bonda

by,

hujan+raihan

lets listen to this raya song..

sgt best!

gud collaboration..

;)

mari menghitung.

hey guy!

i will be at home tomorrow!

yea!yea!

dun get jealous ye!(esp my housem3 tu..haha!)

hari ni..

then esok malam i balik kg!

wahh really sronok lar...

dah xde mood dah nak buat keje ni...

even notes i xsiap2 lg...

kalau xsempat siap by tomorrow...

continue after raya je lar ye miss Shanti???(haha..sggh badak!)

act, i hv meeting today at 230pm..so malas!

then at 4pm, i hv training for TCMS..(dun ask me ye..i also dunnoe tcms stand 4 wut..;p)

as far as i noe, its about how to key in student's marks into the system lar...

bgs betol lar college aku ni...

TP....

aku tersangat lar malas ni...

otak dah sampai umah dah..

jasad je kat sini lg...

hehe.

sungguh tak sabau nak balik esok..

even baru last week aku blk..

ketidaksabauan itu mcm tak blk berbulan2..

haha.

my bro pon dah went through his operation yesterday..

xsabau nak blk tgk dia jgk..

hope he is okei and in best of health lar..

insyaAllah..;)

see?

::me and my colleagues::

can u see???

how special i am???

haha.

the picture was taken right before 'white coat ceremony' for faculty of medical and health sciences last week. there were only half of my colleagues and the rest were lost.

i was surrounded by almost 70% non-malaysian people.

dun be shocked haa if one day i manage to talk in tamil..

wahahaha.

*gelak jahat sket*

my think.

i was thinking how the next hari raye is going to be..

like the years before???

or mybe a bit different???

well..

let's us see lar soon...

i hope our coming hari raya is 'ceria' like last time lar...

for sure not as 'ceria' as 4 years ago lar...

for sure it wont happen again lar..

and..

this coming hari raya is the 4th raya we celebrate it without a person called abah..

i do really hope my bro will be discharged as soon as possible..should be before raya lar..

so we r not going to celebrate hari raya in hospital..;p

heard that his operation is set on next sunday..hope jadi lar...

and...

i want to thank to ALLAH...

for keep me safe just now...

u noe, i was about to hit a car..

Ya ALLAH..seram sgt..

luckily my umur still panjang..

alhamdulillah...syukur...

Ramadhan incident.

last friday, 040909, our 14th day of Ramadhan..my family was shocked wif a bad news..sumbody called my mom right before breaking fast...he told my mom that my lil bro had an accident..owh my God!our nightmare become truth!become reality!when my sis in grik informed me..i couldnt say anything..i was numb!the thing that i afraid of become a reality...Ya Allah..terkejut xterkata...all i can do was crying and praying for his safety..doa supaya my bro panjang umur...i took a flight immediately and went to the hospital straightaway...luckily the ticket was still available that nite..thanx so much to lely coz rushing came back home to pick me up to the airport..thanx sgt!seb baek aku ade housemate prihatin mcm mu..

back to my bro incident, he had lateral condyle of right femur and multiple mandible fracture..when i saw him for the 1st time..i dont recognize him at all..mmg lain sgt muka my bro that time..bengkak sgt...Tuhan je lar tahu sedihnye hati...tp at the same time i was thankful and grateful sgt coz my bro still panjang umur...alhamdulillah syukur lar..

he was hospitalized until the treament and operation are completely done.i hope he will recover very soon..even though aku salu gaduh ngn dia..aku tetap sayang kt dia...when he sicked, all of us feel the same too...people, plz pray for him yea...

Urghhh.

i hv juz arrived at my college around 8am in d morning.

im not in mood to start my daily routine.

not as usual.

feel so sleepy rite now.

i want to go home and get some sleep.

lambatnye pukul5...=(

life update.

hi all.

its been almost 2weeks i didnt post anything...

quite busy with my working life lar..(urm??iye ke??haha!)

last week i'd moved out from desa palma..d most terrible hostel lar i ever had..wont stay there anymore lar after dis..surrounded by stranger n unknown person..i felt so stressed plus depressed!presently, life getting better lar..even though i hv to drive almost 30km to reach my destination..its alrite lar..just like my mom said, its okei to spend a lot of money..as long as we enjoy wut we r doing..we happy with it..its worth lar.

talking bout my life..i hv been here for bout 3weeks lar..dis is my 3rd week..alhamdulillah lar..i manage to adapt my new environment slowly..even xsuke pon..i have to lar..bcoz im d one who choose dis way, isnt it??nobody force me..its my intention..

never mind lar..i want to gain sum experiences 1st b4 i jump to another stage..

i hv to stop here lar..my notes is calling me lor..xsiap2 lg ni..

daaaa evelibodi~

huhu.

i want to go home...

sumbody plz take me home...

i dun want to be here..

i cannot stand this..

huhu...

='(

blabbing.

actually i have too many stories to write here.

too many things and ideas bombarding my head.

but im not going to share all those things at the same time.

im gonna split them up chapter by chapter.

hehe.

care, what is so important bout caring?

normally people will define caring as take care of others,is it?

i found that when people being near to each others, they dun really show their concern.

and sumtime we come out with summary, they dun care bout us.

actually they did.

they do care bout us.

sumtime more than we care bout ourself.

the thing is, they didnt show directly their caring..their concern to us..

since i was far from all my belurved person..

i can feel how concern they are to me when we are far from each other instead of being near.

mybe bcoz when we are near to each other, they dun need to show their concern as they can look themself how my condition is.

its gud sumtime 4 being far..

bcoz we will appreciate them more than what we did when they are on our eye.

believe me.

*merepek+berleter*

footnote:nak story bout my new life in new place and environment..but next time lar..=)

dear diary,

sy rase sgt berdebar-debar.

my heart is beating fast.

*takowt*

by me,

ur owner.

counting time.

clock is ticking.

its 905pm.

thus,

less than 24 hours to go before departure.

i didnt pack anything yet.

not in mood of packing stuff.

hope im not going to suffer a kind of syndrome called humsick soon.

im all alone afterwards.

im afraid a bit.

huk3.

God help me...

convo event.

im jz coming back from penang for my convo.

juz arrived home safely around 4am.

my convo for this year not as gud as last year.

no flower,no gifts,

but doesnt matter lah.

im not budak kecik anymore.

who asking for sumthing in return for what i had done.

of coz nope!

i was hepi as my fren and i can gather in one big hall for our special event..

taking some photos and sharing d gretest heppiness with them.

we proud as we could reach our dream.

to be a Msc Medical Physics graduate.

yeah!

we did it frenz!

congrate to all of u!

this moment could be our precious memory as its hard for us to assemble like this aftrwards..

congrate guys!

and

gud luck for ur future undertakings!

esp in ur new carrier...

see u again one day!

::after convo ceremony::

::before entering the hall::

::medrad gurl become medphysic gurl..who's missing haa?::

::me and miss rose::

::me and miss maria::

ngedate.

today,

we meet again.

our last weekend being near to each other.

after this,

we will be separated by several river,land and mountain.huhu.

sgt sedih.

i was very2 happy as we could spent our day without any interruption, including my mood.hehe.

we managed to snap some self-taken pictures.yeah.

i liked ur action and reaction.hehe.

kelakar tul awak neh.

i hope we will be always like this.

we smile,

we laugh,

we talk,

we blabber,

we teasing,

thats make u and me attach to each other.

as always.

hehe.

i will always miss our sweet moment.

*wink*

::br blk pasar ye bang??hak3!::

footnote:thanx 4 d cute pouch.i like it!=)

counting day.

one more week to go.

08 09 10 11 12 13 14 15

11&12th - im in Penang for convo ceremony

15th - im leaving to new place, huhu

kami.

dia besar, saya kecik.

dia tinggi, saya katik.

dia mamam byk, saya mamam sikit (je).

dia mamam cepat, saya mamam lambat sikit (je).

walau berapa banyak perbezaan antara saya dan dia.

kami tetap sama.

kerana kami mempunyai rasa yang sama.

itulah kami.

+

=

???

new!

finally,

i hv decided to make some changes to my bloggie layout.

so,

how does it looks?

better isnt it?

but the theme colour is black as usual.

bcz i lurve black.

okei,

times up.

gotta go.

im going to work 4 2morrow (its weekend okeh).

pity me.

so,

thats mean i should go to sleep now.

papai.

footnote:i didnt finish yet touch up my bloggie..going to be continue soon.

urmm.

i willl attend my convo ceremony for my master degree next week.

unfortunately nobody will accompany me.

didnt get the picture??

i will go alone by myself.

okeh?!

people,

plz dun ask me anymore.

im tired of answering this type of Q.

nobody will watch and clap for me for what i have done for last 1 year.

never mind.

its okei.

as long as people around me is happy.

im happy for them too.

cheer up girl!

footnote: i dun feel excited 4 dis coming convo...im not happy okei..=(

relief.

i have told them yesterday.

and fortunately they didnt scold me..

haha.

very lucky as i got a very2 kind boss..

but even though the burden was gone..

i still feel somekind of xsedap ati..

dunnoe y..

today.

today i meet with the cutie rats again.

feed them with honey.

trained them how to jump.

counted how many times they jumped.

some of rats are naughty and crazy.

they tried to bite us.

haha.

of all 45 rats, some of them dunnoe how to jump...(or they are lazy actually??)

im just curious...doesnt all rats are born with nature habits of jumping?

or mybe because of they are born and keep growing in the cages make them different from the one that live outside?

urmm.

tomorrow im going to play with them again.

i hope i can adapt my new game of life.

haha.

alaa.

esok dh kena bgn awal blk...

alaaa...

xpuas lg cuti...

huk3!

i need extra holidays...

can i extend my weekend???

plz????

haha.

blabla.

hey all!

tomorrow is weekend okeh??

the day that im waiting for.

hoho.

i juz realize that how precious and meaningful the weekend is.

before this weekend just come and go.

but now i noe how wonderful weekend is compare to weekdays.

jgn marah ye weekdays.

haha.

talking bout weekend..its not that i do really hate the weekdays..

but my weekdays are really great..even the tiredness was extreme than usual.

i found that working life was so different than the one i had before this.

even though their salary did not fit with my qualification..but its okei for me..

i dun mind at all what amount they want to pay me.

as all the experiences that i had go through are priceless.

im really thankful for this oppoturnity.

im really enjoy my life now.

surround by nice and kind people.

working environment is really pleasant.

my boss really kind, other staff as well.

they noe how to appreciate us, concern bout us.

they were organize and systematic.

boss,lecturers,staffs and students can mix up with each other.

no difference in status or racist (my boss is chinese okeh).

we can speak,eat,laugh altogether.

its really good actually.

=)

3tahun.

tanggal 20hb Julai 2009,4.05pm.

genap lar 3 tahun hari ni kami kehilangan orang yg paling kami sayangi dan hormati.

tempat kami bergantung dan bermanja.

kenangan yg tidak akan pernah kami lupakan selama hayat kami.

dia adalah yg terbaik.

tidak mungkin ada yg mampu mengganti tempatnya dihati kami.

semoga kami tidak lupa utk mengirimkan doa dan fatihah buat mu.

semoga abah ditempatkan dikalangan para solihin dan orang yg beriman.

semoga kita bertemu kelak di Syurga.

kami sayang abah.

~al-fatihah~

memory.

1807.

the most memorable day in my life.

the last day we gathered before u left us.

i wont forget all those memories.

u mean everything to me, to us.

we miss u alwaiz.

u alwaiz in my heart, our heart.

we lurve u more than we could say.

u are our superhero,abah.

alfatihah.

br ku tahu.

baru ku tahu ape itu penatnye bekerja.

keluar pagi balik senja.

sungguh tak seronok.

baru ku tahu susahnye our parents nak cari duit every month.

sungguh memenatkan.

macam ni la yg ma dan abah rase dulu agaknye.

urmm.

penat.

sy kepenatan hari ni.

tak ade mood nak update blog.

rase mau ketiduran saje.

but i still have things to do.

dan keputusan masih belom dibuat.

sy xmampu berbuat demikian lagi.

org sekeliling sudah bertanye.

haish.

in the middle.

half of my heart say no.

stay here and dont go anywhere.

half of them say yes.

go and try something new.

what am i suppose to do?

im in dilemma.

owh.

sigh.

sorry to say.

but i cannot be good all the time.

i cannot pretend to be nice most of time.

i am me.

a normal human being with normal kind of feeling.

i cannot be a superwomen or whatsoever.

*sigh*

new life.

my new life will begin very soon.

i have to prepare myself for all upcoming things.

talking about new life, actually i will start my new step by joining one conference in Hotel Grand Riverview nearby sg. kelantan

the conference so-called 'International Sport Science Conference blabla'...(i dun remember lor..hehe)

actually i dun plan this.

this new life begin suddenly.

i dun know how i can involve myself in such thing.

well, Allah knows better.

this field is so new to me.

but i will make sure myself are not having a shock.

haha.

what is the conference all about?

according to Dr. Chen, he said that this conference involving many academicians of sport science course from all over the world.

i dun really participate this conference, just become a secretariat and helping the needy.

the conference will be held for 3 days, from 15 to 17 July 2009..but i have to be there one day earlier for preparation.

so for those 3 days, i will be busy.(really?or im busying myself?haha.)

what is so important about this conference?

u guys know what?

the conference will be participated by delegation from 21 country all over the world including Australia and blabla..

and what im worrying about are...

our security and protection.

i know we are given face mask and all necessary things.

but do all those thing keep us safe???

owh my God.

plz protect us.

amin.

but however, i need to acquaint myself with this new life and surrounding.

for sure there are a lot of new things i need to discover soon.

well, just wait and see.

and,

i hope i can adapt my new daily life.

no more wake up late in the morning.

hehe.

come on girl!u can do it!

owh,

almost 12midnite.

i should go for bed now.

i need to wake up early tomorrow morning for sahur.

i still owe one more day.

okei,

gud nite everybody.

papai.

haish.

saya rasa semacam je.

rasa nak makan orang je.

owh my God.

sabar hamizah.

sabar.

saya sedang berpuasa.

istighfar banyak2.

owh.

hari ini saya berpuasa.

owh.

sudah lama saya tidak berpuasa.

baru setengah hari saya dah rasa exhausted.

padahal tak buat kerja apa2 pun hari ini.

hanya membasuh kereta sahaja.

nasib baik saya terjaga sahur.

kalau tidak tentu saya sudah pengsan.

hehe.

missing.

at this moment.

what i feel is.

i do really miss him so much.

do u noe this?

even we hv met last two days.

but its like we have not seen each other for two months.

i miss u.

*sigh*

u should be proud as i miss u this much.

ahax.